Morals

What are morals?...
(Right from Google!) : A person's standards of behavior or beliefs concerning what is and is not acceptable for them to do.


So I think I just 'disgraced' my own morals; did them wrong...
Have you ever done something that went against everything you believed? How did you feel after? Did it have a lasting effect on you?
I just did something that if you'd asked me a month or two ago, I would've laughed and said "I would never do that! I'm better than that." Today I found myself doing that though. 
It's not something horrible that is going to ruin my life, it's just sad that my views on things have changed.
I feel like what I did should be wrong, but for some reason it's like I'm kind of okay with it. Ughhh.. I fluster myself.

I feel like I need another me giving me a stern look and pointing a finger saying, "You knew better than that! What were you thinking?"  To which I would obviously reply, "I wasn't thinking. I was just, doing."

That's weird for me. To just do something without thinking first. It's not even like me. Which is weird because today is my birthday. Every year I think 'It's my birthday and because I'm one year older I'm a 'new/different' me.' Which I never believe. I believe that I become a new person by experiencing new things and dealing with different situations. Things like making the decision I made today is something that will change me. I hope for the better, although I'm not completely sure, which can never be a good sign! 

All I'm hoping is that it was one of those mistakes that were 'good mistakes'. ie. mistakes that weren't too harmful but will teach me a valuable life lesson. I feel like if I don't learn from it I'll make the same mistake again, except it won't be a mistake because I'll be doing it on purpose. For what purpose? I honestly have NO idea...

I'm beginning to ramble. I need a good night's sleep to straighten out my thoughts. A good nights sleep always helps anything! :)