A Real 'Rey' of Sunshine.

Have you ever seen something too beautiful for words?
I was just involved in a piece of work so utterly breathtaking it made me shiver.
I can understand it, but I cannot relate to it.
Any other day, or any other proposal of this idea I wouldn't have thought twice. I'd wonder why I'd ever want to experience something so awful.
Then again, it's not any other day, it's today. And all I want is to be able to experience and truly feel the way this artist felt. I want to connect to life the way she did. I want to feel a burning desire and passion the way she did. I want to be able to speak about it as charismatically as she does.
I want to feel this pain, just to know I can still feel.
Her piece is amazing as it is, truly incredible. I feel everyone could appreciate it so much more though if they could experience the past life she had to survive to make it to where she is now.
It's breathtakingly beautiful.
It makes me feel an intensity I knew not existed.
It pains me.
Yet it makes me feel alive.

HE.

I just had a revelation.
A serious revelation.
You were with her four months before I had been with him.
You've been with her for 6 months and I with him for 2 months.
So with that four month gap of you being taken and me being single I didn't understand how to respect our new relationship.
I should not have been flirting with you because it was wrong. It might have made you feel confused and thinking back makes me feel guilty; that's how I know it's wrong. 
I wasn't trying to wreck your relationship or sabotage it, I simply didn't understand...how to be single without you being single as well.
Now I get it though.
Tonight we were outside and he put his arms around me and things just all of a sudden felt right.
I heard the click.
The magical and blissful sound of a chiming click where everything feels right and you can feel everything has come together nicely.
I can't help but feel horrible thinking you had achieved your click already... maybe you haven't though. Odds are you have and while you were trying to enjoy the good in your life you couldn't fully appreciate it because I was like the 'tick' that kept interrupting your clicks. 
Does that make any sense?
I don't know... I'm sorry; I know that much. 
I'm glad I realized that tonight; that I'm really happy with what I have right now.
Maybe I can't have you, at least not now, but I think I'm starting to get over you.
Maybe it's crazy me talking and I'm still madly in love with you.
But I don't feel the way I used to... I don't want to talk to you every single day or even every second day.
After you hurt me I think I actually learned my lesson; fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. Even though it's more like 'Fool me eighty-seven times, shame on me again.'
Anyways, after feeling my click tonight I knew he deserved the best. My he. He-him who is mine.
He deserves the best because he is genuinely a good guy who treats me better than anyone. I can tell how much he loves me even if it's only been a couple months. We've known each other so much longer so I actually know him. And he deserves better than what I've been giving him.. he deserves someone like the girl I am going to be.
And other he, not my he, but he-he; yes him, he deserves the best too. Sadly, I don't think I am what is best for him. I think moving on will help him maybe more than it will help me. He's a terrific guy; one in a million, and he deserves his perfect one in a million and I can't help but think for once in my life that maybe she's not me.

I think I'm moving on even though I'm not ready.
But I can't stop. 

Passion

I love this picture!
Of course it's hilarious but it also holds an exceptional amount of truth to it.
I feel like everyone is born with pieces missing.
I think that as we go on in life, experiences, people and places help to fill these holes.
I admire people who are passionate. I feel like it is much easier for them to fill these holes they bear. 
When I meet someone who is passionate about something I looove listening to what it is they are passionate about. Have you ever actually listened to someone talk about something they passionately love? It's amazing! You get a true sense of who they actually are and you automatically like them more...
You could be passionate about zippers, but once you start telling me about why you love them and I see the joy and happiness radiating from your body I cannot help but feel infected. It's such a beautifully warm feeling too. 
People who are passionate in life always seem to be happier as well because they've found a reason they believe that life is worth living for. These passions help create meaning that makes others envious and want to strive to be like them. I don't think this is bad because it helps to build the character of others -plus being passionate about something is typically a pro. 
As odd as this may sound, I love listening to elderly people who are passionate. 
I love thinking that someone who has been around for so long can still be so happy and excited with their life and small things in it that others may believe are unimportant. 
I also enjoy listening to people who have passion for another person or animal. People especially are extremely complex and to be able to love someone so intensely and be true to that love with an honest and open heart is truly incredible. I applaud these people.
Well, I hope everyone who is searching to fill their gaping holes comes across something they feel passionately about, and hold on until they discover it.