I love skype because it lets me see people I may not have otherwise had the chance to. It's fairly personal.
To be honest, I don't usually skype people I see on a daily basis. I use it mainly to catch up with people living further away.
There's one guy I love to skype. I only know him through xbox, and I know it may sound weird to others who haven't done that before, or sound unsafe, but when you talk to someone for over a year you really get to know them. You learn their flaws and what you really like about them. And because you're not seeing them everyday the friendship you have with them is even more impressive. It means you have to put more effort into it; it doesn't come as easily. It's a lot easier to communicate with someone when you're privileged with seeing them everyday, you know?
Well this friend and I, we skype a decent amount. Not as much as I'd like but we're both pretty busy, although he's definitely busier. It's not a bad thing. I can admire it.
Whenever we're skyping I have to be quiet because it's usually later (since there's a time change) -I'd hate for my mom or dad to wake up because they'd probably be mad (especially my dad because he's pretty over protective and would think it's dangerous and stupid of me. I'm naive sometimes but I have good judgement of people. I wouldn't be giving my information to complete strangers unless I had good reasoning, which I do, it's called trust. I trust the people and my better judgement to steer me in the right direction. I'm very safe.). It's hard to be so quiet though because he does a good job at making me laugh. When he smiles it's like, horribly contagious in the best way. When he laughs I always laugh. I laugh a lot... I think it weirds him out. I'm glad it weirds him out. He's not the happiest go-lucky guy. I'm not saying he's depressed or anything, not even, I guess I'm just used to being around my friends who are honestly always laughing or smiling. It's different for me to not be around someone who's constantly happy. Different can be good though.
I pretty much begged him to go on webcam last night because I hadn't seen him in awhile. That was a small mistake. I loved seeing him but he'd been drinking a bit and was way tired. I don't regret it, but I would've rather talked to him while he was sober and more awake... It's always nice seeing his handsome smile though. I'd never be the fool to pass that up.
Anyways, I hope it was the liquor talking but he kept mumbling about how he's going to break my heart. "I don't do it on purpose, it just always happens. It might not be right away, may be in 50 years, but it always happens." Of course I asked him to explain but he wouldn't. Usually I'd let it drop but I really wanted to understand. He can't make jokes about love and then tell me he's going to break my heart. He kind of already has a larger amount than I'd like him to, so he worried me. But, I'm blaming it on his state of mind because I'm sure he didn't mean it. Plus, we're young. We're supposed to make mistakes and learn from them. We're supposed to let them make us stronger.
The problem is, I think I really like this boy...
To be honest, I don't usually skype people I see on a daily basis. I use it mainly to catch up with people living further away.
There's one guy I love to skype. I only know him through xbox, and I know it may sound weird to others who haven't done that before, or sound unsafe, but when you talk to someone for over a year you really get to know them. You learn their flaws and what you really like about them. And because you're not seeing them everyday the friendship you have with them is even more impressive. It means you have to put more effort into it; it doesn't come as easily. It's a lot easier to communicate with someone when you're privileged with seeing them everyday, you know?
Well this friend and I, we skype a decent amount. Not as much as I'd like but we're both pretty busy, although he's definitely busier. It's not a bad thing. I can admire it.
Whenever we're skyping I have to be quiet because it's usually later (since there's a time change) -I'd hate for my mom or dad to wake up because they'd probably be mad (especially my dad because he's pretty over protective and would think it's dangerous and stupid of me. I'm naive sometimes but I have good judgement of people. I wouldn't be giving my information to complete strangers unless I had good reasoning, which I do, it's called trust. I trust the people and my better judgement to steer me in the right direction. I'm very safe.). It's hard to be so quiet though because he does a good job at making me laugh. When he smiles it's like, horribly contagious in the best way. When he laughs I always laugh. I laugh a lot... I think it weirds him out. I'm glad it weirds him out. He's not the happiest go-lucky guy. I'm not saying he's depressed or anything, not even, I guess I'm just used to being around my friends who are honestly always laughing or smiling. It's different for me to not be around someone who's constantly happy. Different can be good though.
I pretty much begged him to go on webcam last night because I hadn't seen him in awhile. That was a small mistake. I loved seeing him but he'd been drinking a bit and was way tired. I don't regret it, but I would've rather talked to him while he was sober and more awake... It's always nice seeing his handsome smile though. I'd never be the fool to pass that up.
Anyways, I hope it was the liquor talking but he kept mumbling about how he's going to break my heart. "I don't do it on purpose, it just always happens. It might not be right away, may be in 50 years, but it always happens." Of course I asked him to explain but he wouldn't. Usually I'd let it drop but I really wanted to understand. He can't make jokes about love and then tell me he's going to break my heart. He kind of already has a larger amount than I'd like him to, so he worried me. But, I'm blaming it on his state of mind because I'm sure he didn't mean it. Plus, we're young. We're supposed to make mistakes and learn from them. We're supposed to let them make us stronger.
The problem is, I think I really like this boy...
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