I'm Just Me

I am a liar.
I am a cheater.
I am a thief.
I am human.
I didn't really think about it until the other day, but I have done quite a few bad things in my life. I have hurt others and I have hurt myself. I have broken the law and stolen and lied to one's I love. Then I realized that I did none of these things to hurt others, but to help others. 
I think I feel the consequences of letting someone I love and care about down, are more impacting than doing any of these actions. 
It's not like I run around looking for trouble either, I am a good person. I know that for sure. It's hard to explain. It's like, I would do anything for someone I love, anything. The thought is very scary, yet the thought of losing them is even scarier.
And when I was thinking about this, I was afraid to write about it because... because it was TRUE. I was afraid of being judged by people I didn't know, for being honest. I feel this everyday, I hate it. People should be more accepting, and I obviously have a bit more of growing to do.
When you hear someone say they steal, or they're a thief, you're probably afraid. I would be afraid! What I steal though, I feel it's for the better. If my father is on a diet I will steal his candy and chocolate bars. I will hide them away because I want to help him. It's wrong to take things that aren't yours, but I feel what I'm doing is in his best interest, ya know?
When I lie, it's usually to make others feel better, white lies.
I cheat too. When I cheat it can be to win or lose. Usually to lose to make the other feel better, which is wrong... I still do it. Sometimes if I'm with someone extremely cocky I will cheat to win because I feel I'm helping teach them a lesson. I'm not trying to be evil or anything, I just feel that the impact of them losing is better and bigger than me cheating.
It's a hard thing for people to understand.
Ultimately I am human. I believe that if I can try my best in life and forgive others for the same actions I do, I will be okay.