Well hello.
Happy New Year! 2013. I have no idea what this year has in store for me, but I've decided I'm done being lazy right now. Not actually 'lazy', just.. hmm.. I'm tired of waiting for things to happen when I can make them happen.
That's what I am doing tomorrow.
I'm ending this relationship because it's not healthy for me and it's made me mad.
I'm fidgety and moody and the only thing I want to do is punch a punching bag as hard as possible until I literally can't breath. Once I catch my breath I want to cry until I've created a pond. Then I'll take my goldfish out of his tank and let him swim more freely in there.
I almost broke up on the phone but then I didn't think it was a nice enough way.
Tomorrow I'm visiting him in person. I want to make it fast and just pull it off quickly like a band-aid.
I'm really proud of myself to be honest. He was seeing another girl and knew it troubled me but kept doing it until it got to being ridiculous. I'm excited that I'm smart enough not to put up with that BS.
I haven't been to church in about two weeks because I've been sick on and off, but I'm looking forward to returning next week! I spent all day yesterday reading about the bible and God and Jesus. It's hard for me to take it all in but at the same time it's oh so incredible! Plus, the Lord will always put me first and no other man, yet person, will ever love me as much as he does.
Amen.
Happy New Year! 2013. I have no idea what this year has in store for me, but I've decided I'm done being lazy right now. Not actually 'lazy', just.. hmm.. I'm tired of waiting for things to happen when I can make them happen.
That's what I am doing tomorrow.
I'm ending this relationship because it's not healthy for me and it's made me mad.
I'm fidgety and moody and the only thing I want to do is punch a punching bag as hard as possible until I literally can't breath. Once I catch my breath I want to cry until I've created a pond. Then I'll take my goldfish out of his tank and let him swim more freely in there.
I almost broke up on the phone but then I didn't think it was a nice enough way.
Tomorrow I'm visiting him in person. I want to make it fast and just pull it off quickly like a band-aid.
I'm really proud of myself to be honest. He was seeing another girl and knew it troubled me but kept doing it until it got to being ridiculous. I'm excited that I'm smart enough not to put up with that BS.
I haven't been to church in about two weeks because I've been sick on and off, but I'm looking forward to returning next week! I spent all day yesterday reading about the bible and God and Jesus. It's hard for me to take it all in but at the same time it's oh so incredible! Plus, the Lord will always put me first and no other man, yet person, will ever love me as much as he does.
Amen.
